I want to take this chance to write a blog while my willpower can resist holding this off. I had a eureka moment while taking a shower after Marie Kondo-ing our place here in Manila. not sure if ideas just naturally come up in the shower or the tidying up got me feeling inspired…
Our temporary place is a one-bedroom unit, small space and we don’t have everything in here so the entire process of tidying was pretty easy considering i’ve accumulated so much stuff already- i work in a clothing line so I have a number of clothes I could mix and match through the season and it gets bigger and bigger every trend comes out. I also like hoarding magazines which is a very good dust-collector, and Im very sentimental as you would notice keeping a blog like this even though personal blogs are sooo what 2016??
Through the process I was able to decide to let go of my diaries i brought in from the province to here in Manila o di ba labo? Di ko gets why I had to bring my 2014, 2016 diaries here. I dont know why I am so good at living in the past and kept reliving it. But lo and behold through watching netflix in between sorting my stuff I was able to let go of the stuff that I dont want to keep in my future anymore and stuff that I am consciously letting go of. It’s therapeutic and a very productive way of discovering yourself.
Anyway dami ko satsat! The eureka moment I was talking about was about writing again. not really something profound like donating my stuff to charity hahaha. Yun lang yung content ng blog post na ‘to! Hahaha I wanted to greet my blogpage a-la Marie Kondo before I give my carefully handpicked 2019 moments in this page.
Hello my blog, I know ive been putting you off ever since like a high school best friend i dont get to see anymore because of having work on weekends. Like a mom i cannot even check on to because “im tired for the day…” but i wanna say thank you for being readily available to catch all my dreams anxieties and hanash without judgement (maybe i should keep this private??)
youve been very good to me despite not being able to do justice to your very purpose.
Now I know youve seen this “startover” several times and several new years at that already but allow me to try again this time. 🙂
I know I said I threw my diaries away because I was having a tough time 2014 to 2016. I was going through a break up, break ups are the worst especially when it involves group of friends. And the worst-est part is you were not even sure if youve actually broken up. I was also going through a frustrating career change etc those were the trying times and Ive kept them in 3 notebooks max. Upon rereading my diary entries I was amazed on how good I was at holding onto something… good and bad. Pero mas maraming bad! Hahaha. but there were really nice entries too and I can confidently say I owe it to self-expression that I have a better sense of self now. With that said even though I threw them away because it is time t let go of the memories in the past and the habit of constantly writing about things that stresses me more and pains me, the new person in me is itching to write again and keep a blog that is meant to store more positive things and thoughts that are worth sharing!
I know paulit-ulit if youve been here (blog) before. But we shall see if this will work.